So I finally got back my midyears result slip. Passed everything, so I guess i ought to be really grateful. Though I passed econs only cos it was moderated haha! Got an S for it originally but it became an E. One B, one C, one D and two Es. And I got 54 rank points.
I guess it's really not too bad. :/ But I just hate myself so much for not putting in 200% of effort. :< I hate myself for being so lazy. :-(
I have yet to reveal my results to my parents bcos I can't face them myself. Honestly it's not too bad but I feel so disappointed with myself. I feel like I'm letting them down. And I'm also letting myself down.
And honestly my olevel results pressurize me so much, I feel like I'm expected to get good results. It's as if people expect me to be really smart, but I'm really not. :-( And my current results appear to be a total disappointment.
To me, my results really suck a lot a lot, despite what everyone else is telling me.
I guess it's because I have really high expectations. But me being a lazybum isn't doing anything to try to meet these expectations -_- WHAT AM I DOINGGGGGG MAN.
Gotta buck up for promos alr I don't wanna retain. Ohgod I've always been a laid-back and lazy student idk how am I going to start being active and all.
But I really hope I can improve my results for promos. Hopefully rank points 65 but err .... Anw I really hope my econs grade can improve cos it sucks like asdfghkl now.
P/S: I thought I was an arts person, but my best subject (B) ended up being biology. THOUGH, it's just h1 la so it's a lot easier haha. But it was just really unexpected! Well bio, aren't you lovely?